When the doctor removed the cyst from my wrist (which has unfortunately returned), I experienced the true meaning of helplessness.
She told me : No tennis, and don’t use the computer.
When I got home I opened the computer and sent an email to my mom explaining that I couldn’t use the computer because I had a cyst removed and my wrist was bandaged really tightly and that she shouldn’t worry if she didn’t hear from me for awhile, and yes I was attaching a photo of my bandage and it was my first time to have a bandage ever and…
After a very long email to my mother I chatted with some friends online…
And then I tried to draw on my journal to see how ugly my handwriting would be (it was very ugly).
And then I took a knife to cut myself pieces of saucisson for a snack using my bandaged wrist…
And then I told myself I’d just take a peek at my emails, and promptly answered 5 mails (took me around an hour)…
And that night when my wrist started to hurt I complained nonstop.
The sad part is that I will have to have an operation because the damned thing is back and it’s not dangerous but very uncomfortable.
It was the first time in my entire life to have a cast of whatever. I used to be secretly jealous of classmates or cousins with huge chunks of cast on their legs or arms after falling from mango trees because everyone could write dedications on their casts and they looked very special and important.
Anyway I was complaining quite bitterly about how “having a cast made me feel half-myself” (I can be very dramatic and profound to cover up the fact that I make no sense at all) and Julien reminded me that he, too, had an accident when he was in Jordan, which required the doctor to cast his wrist and that he knew exactly how I felt.
Although his case was an accident brought on purely by stupidity: During his first day off in around 2 months, he rolled out of bed at lunchtime (lunchtime!) and tried to separate two frozen pieces of steak and drove a knife directly between his thumb and index finger.
At least the story behind my bandaged wrist is more sophisticated.
